"much of my life have been devoted to trying not to cry in front of people who loved me, so i knew what Augustus was doing. you clench your teeth. you look up. you tell yourself that if they see you cry, it will hurt them, and you will be nothing but a sadness in their lives, and you must not become a mere sadness, so you will not cry, and you will say all of this to yourself while looking up to the ceiling, and you swallow even though your throat does not want to close and you look at the who loves you and smile. -John Green, The fault in our stars"